Showing Up

Sometimes it is easy to show up. Sometimes it is a struggle. Sometimes it is more than a struggle.

I have committed to something that goes well into May. It is more than the typical struggle of the daily grind. It is emotionally, spiritually, and physically draining. Yet I intend to see it through to the last day.

Hitting the gym after work is not as joyful as it has been in the past. But there is still something to the “showing up” that makes it worth it. I know that this struggle will not last forever. There is a time limit. Looking forward to that time, I know I will appreciate that I continued showing up at the gym.

Since the onset of my psoas syndrome, and after missing a couple of weeks at the gym, I have noticed my strength has lessened. By quite a bit. At first, I found this discouraging. Then I thought back to when I first began training. My baseline strength now is stronger than when I began. That’s a good thing.

When things are tough, keep taking steps forward. Keep showing up. Don’t compare yourself to where you were just before this most recent setback, think back to the beginning, when you were afraid to begin. You began. You took that first step. Now, take the next one. And know it is the right thing. Even if you don’t feel the joy, the knowledge that you showed up adds to layers of integrity. That’s important..